walk the talk
So it seems that things are moving along. Background check should be coming to a close, and I'm supposed to be getting cracking on studying before heading off to math camp. Financial aid is even fairly close to getting completed. After the initial sticker shock, the husband is back on board.
This seems like such a selfish time -- half of the time, all I can think about is what's next, what comes after that, when can I finally make the change. And it's a time when I can't really afford to be so selfish. My little sis is staying with us this summer, and she's going through the same math books I had to review for GMAT prep. She's getting her quant up to speed because she's fallen behind. And I've tried to be as helpful as I can. Helping her get settled into our household; trying to design programming that fit her needs and personality; helping her define some goals for each day, week, and month. And she's doing well. She even managed to walk on to the swim team at the local club. L couldn't be more pleased about that. The nostalgia when we pulled out his old Santa Clara Swim Club cap nearly choked the oxygen from the garage. She's been hanging out with me at work, and even helped me get a proposal in the mail under deadline. I've been finding myself spending my time arranging for her growth. And somehow, not doing my work for my calculus class. Or doing enough at my job, where I'm mercifully part-time now. Since I can only muster up enough energy to work part of the time, it seemed to be the right thing to do. And I get to hire an intern to build the website I've been complaining about at work for at least 6 months.
This setting an example stuff is important. If she can get up at 6 am to do math, go to swim practice, spend hours studying at home, then be ready to work in an office in the afternoon, why can't I? I read a child development article recently about teenagers and what to expect. One point that I took away from it was how important it is as an adult to align what I say with what I do. Dam* but it's tough when I'm internally conflicted and trying to find enough motivation to make it through the week at work. I've gotta find a way to walk the talk. As Big Daddy Kane once scowled, "ain't no half-steppin'".
In other news, I was sad to find out recently that Luther Vandross passed away. I spent a New Year's Eve some years ago at his concert with L and an old friend, and remember thinking how talented he was. And funny, too. What a show it was. May he rest in peace.
This seems like such a selfish time -- half of the time, all I can think about is what's next, what comes after that, when can I finally make the change. And it's a time when I can't really afford to be so selfish. My little sis is staying with us this summer, and she's going through the same math books I had to review for GMAT prep. She's getting her quant up to speed because she's fallen behind. And I've tried to be as helpful as I can. Helping her get settled into our household; trying to design programming that fit her needs and personality; helping her define some goals for each day, week, and month. And she's doing well. She even managed to walk on to the swim team at the local club. L couldn't be more pleased about that. The nostalgia when we pulled out his old Santa Clara Swim Club cap nearly choked the oxygen from the garage. She's been hanging out with me at work, and even helped me get a proposal in the mail under deadline. I've been finding myself spending my time arranging for her growth. And somehow, not doing my work for my calculus class. Or doing enough at my job, where I'm mercifully part-time now. Since I can only muster up enough energy to work part of the time, it seemed to be the right thing to do. And I get to hire an intern to build the website I've been complaining about at work for at least 6 months.
This setting an example stuff is important. If she can get up at 6 am to do math, go to swim practice, spend hours studying at home, then be ready to work in an office in the afternoon, why can't I? I read a child development article recently about teenagers and what to expect. One point that I took away from it was how important it is as an adult to align what I say with what I do. Dam* but it's tough when I'm internally conflicted and trying to find enough motivation to make it through the week at work. I've gotta find a way to walk the talk. As Big Daddy Kane once scowled, "ain't no half-steppin'".
In other news, I was sad to find out recently that Luther Vandross passed away. I spent a New Year's Eve some years ago at his concert with L and an old friend, and remember thinking how talented he was. And funny, too. What a show it was. May he rest in peace.
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